Saturday, March 23, 2013

I Understand…



I recently had some very moving experiences which I feel to share.

I was returning from a trip to Florida where I visited my brother and his family and the trip was experiential beyond my expectations on many levels.  It left me with many realizations and shifted belief system views which have changed me in very positive ways.

I travelled with my mother and my 6 year old daughter who are both my steady rocks in times of turbulence and change.  The wisdom of my mother guides me in so many ways and the pure truth that comes from my daughter brings clarity beyond her years.  Although I am my daughters guide and her mother, I trust her views and ask her opinion often.  She gives me incredible insight from her child’s mind which see’s with purity and clear vision.

When we were crossing over between the east and west coasts we had to transfer planes in Dallas Texas, the Hub airport of DFW – Dallas Fort Worth Airport.  The terminal is really something spectacular.  One takes a tram around a large figure eight to get to different terminals and each terminal is laden with shops, restaurants and extreme architecture that one feel as though one is in a spaceship or transport machine from out of this world. 

My mother was using the restroom and Thea, my daughter, and I were filling up my water bottle at the water fountain outside the restrooms.  An elderly woman walked up and didn’t know where the button was to push to make the water come out.  I showed her without words, and she smiled at me in gratitude.  As she lifted her tiny little water bottle up to the spigot, it was then I noticed that she was shaking.  Her Parkinson ’s disease made it so it was very difficult for her to steady the bottle for the water to make it in the opening.  I offered her help and she declined.  She kept trying to do it herself, but her hand was shaking so badly that only small bits of water were getting in.  I offered again and said “It’s OK, I can help you.”  She let me help her and said to stop before the ¾ mark because she didn’t want that much.  I stopped when she told me to and I gave her back her little bottle.  She thanked me as she twisted the lid on to the bottle.  I replied “You are welcome. It’s ok, I understand.”  We nodded at each other and I saw light in her eyes.  We made a connection.  She slowly walked away.

My mother came out of the restroom and we went to eat some lunch.  While we were waiting for our lunch, I asked to look at the tickets and saw we they were boarding the plane then so we got the food to go and quickly made our way to the plane.

My mother boarded first as she was in the first wave called.  Thea and I were in the last wave.  We were seated separately from my mother in this last leg to SFO from DFW.  I wondered if there was going to be a way to switch with someone so we could sit together. 

As we entered the plane, after the tunnel walk toward the door, we made our way down the aisle, looking at the numbers on the overhead bins for our seat.  An extremely large man was seated in the aisle seat next to our seats.  My mother was one row forward from there in a center seat to the left of us.  To her left was a woman and to her right on the aisle was a very tall man with long legs. 

After we settled in and got all of our things situated, I gently asked the man if he would be open to moving so that we could sit together with my mom.  He said that he could not sit in a center or window seat – it would have to be an aisle.  I realized that it would be too much to ask the tall man to not have an aisle.

I replied to the man next to me: “It’s OK, I understand…”  I could tell when I walked up initially that he felt so uncomfortable in his large body crammed into the airplane seat.  His belly was overflowing out the side, over the arm rests and his chest was pushed up into his chin so he looked like an overstuffed bag.  It looked painful. 

I sat next to him and put Thea at the window. 

After the plane was in the air and leveled off nicely, Thea asked to use the restroom.  When we returned I raised the arm rest between him and me and asked him if this was OK and he said “Yes”. 

When the movie came on, I moved Thea to the center seat so she could see the screen better.  I could see him relax as Thea sat there taking up barely any room at all in her little skinny 6 year old body.  After the film, she moved back to the window to sleep on my lap before we landed.  It was late and the jet lag was upon us.

These two stories highlighted for me an important message.  Everyone is struggling with something; seen or unseen.  Some people have insecurities they hide behind a fake smile.  Some peoples struggle is more visible.  If we garnish a more UNDERSTANDING attitude bringing in compassion for others regardless of their plight, we would live in a much more peaceful world; a world where everyone felt UNDERSTOOD and HONORED in the moment, whatever stage of their story that they were experiencing.

In doing this for others, the broken and unattended to places within us would get recognition and heal too, because if we are all connected and ONE, then surely these things would affect the collective in some healing fashion.

To become mindful and practice compassion in our daily lives, not just with strangers, but with our families; the ones we are used to, the ones we take for granted that they will be there and love us anyway, is the test.  To transfer the talk to the walk and into the daily routine is the real test.

If we can become so mindful and in the moment that we can actually transfer this medium of energy to our daily lives, knowing that in doing so it would bring us and others a deep needed peace, acceptance and acknowledgement.  Now there’s the *Gift*…  The *Gift* that touches all of us… our Hearts, our Souls, our Minds… with deep Loving Acceptance, that how we are, who we are… is OK. Self-compassion, expressed compassion ~ the same.

I understand...

~*~








Friday, March 1, 2013

Mirroring



We mirror what we need to learn.  Many times in life you will have met or experienced someone with whom you felt a range of emotions.  It could be family, a lover, a friend, a coworker or even just someone passing by.  They could have evoked in you sympathy, rage, anger, love, compassion, jealousy; a whole range of feelings.  Whatever the experience, try to view it as a message from the Divine.  It really is a gift for you; a lesson from where you either grow, learn or retreat from having to learn it again, another way later.  This is how patterns set up.  If you feel you are repeating patterns, look deeper into the mirror all around you and seek out the light of Truth.

All of these experiences we have are the collective sharing of energies exchanging frequencies through thought forms transmitted usually through our minds and eyes, but sometimes on all chakra levels.  The deeper the message, the more we feel.

We humans are becoming more and more mindful of the fact that this happens around the clock and at light speed.  When one meditates, this can slow down enough for us to become so aware of it, we can actually step outside of it and become an observer of it for a piece.

This stepping outside is the best medicine because it gives reprieve to the collective dynamic which works constantly to reflect upon itself.  When one steps out of time and mind, one can affect the dynamic in a positive way so that when one re-enters the collective, the positive mirroring’s frequency is raised.

As you can imagine, this raises and affects the whole dynamic.  If you can imagine one drop of water falling into a still pool, the ripples flowing out make it very obvious to see how this one single drop affects the whole pool.  The other well-known analogy is the Butterfly Effect.  When a butterfly flaps its wings in the rainforest ~ it changes the entire world.

We can see, then, our power and in its subtleness, we are infinite.  If we are choosing to feed the collective with negativity, then the energy actually whirlpools downward creating a spiral into an abyss.  What we need to do more frequently is to create an upward spiral so that when we do encounter other beings in our everyday lives, we affect them by mirroring this upward vibration.  From Earth/Gaia, we can root our beings and send the loving green energy upward through our soul centers.  When we then face others humans in our daily lives, they will feel this upward moving energy and they shall be lifted simply by having the energy imprint upon their beings by mirroring.

If we are in a downward spiral, then some kind of release is needed.  This could be physical exercise, writing and releasing through a burning ritual our deepest fears and angers, praying or meditating for peace of mind.  Doing this frees us from the inner torment and thusly, tormenting others.  Sometimes however, it is necessary to talk with someone and reflect with them about positive solutions.  This is the essence of good close mirroring, when someone else has an enlightened view of your downward spiral and can lift you up to theirs or help you to see a way out of it.  Just the simple act of listening, so one can hear oneself is healing.  Talk therapy is very prevalent in our society and with proper spiritual guidance; one can go far this way.   This is an excellent example of good mirroring, for in taking this on, both individuals benefit.

We cannot help but mirror.  We are wired for it.  We all want to be loved, accepted, liked, friended and we recoil from betrayal, pain, isolation, enemies.   It is innate to our nature to want, and more so need, to be uplifted.   Elderly love children because children are not tainted.  They are so pure still unadulterated by the heaviness of society and all of its strictures and morals.  

To feel this mirrored free-spiritedness is what we all seek truly.  It is Divine!  It is from whenst we came ~ Source.


So, when you are traversing your daily lives, remember this.  Whatever comes at you, around you, be it people, animals, trees, your entire environment; is actually trying to message you, to give you a gift of mirroring yourself back at you.  Look at what you are attracted to.  If you seek sugar and candy, look at why you need this sweetness.  How are you not being sweet to yourself.  Try to be more sweet to yourself.  If you seek coffee and caffeine, for energy, see how you are not giving yourself enough rest for natural energy to arise in you.  Give yourself more kindness and rest.  If you are seeking love in another, see how you are not giving yourself the love you need and deserve.  Give the Love to yourself. Ask Divine Goodness to feed you what you need.  If you are seeking escape through drugs or alcohol, see where you need to go for real healing ~ a place that can support real soul excavation to release the demons you fear.  Let that come to light, for all we fear is really our own power and that which we run from is ourselves chasing us into the light.   Embrace your Divinity.

We are Love, we came in Love; we are here to Love, not fear and be controlled by fears.

The trees speak, listen.  The birds speak, listen.  The rain speaks, listen.  The sunshine speaks, listen.  The Earth speaks, listen.  Quieten your mind so much so that you can truly hear the sounds of your soul.  Then become so obedient to these that you align with your highest good and go forth into your life, awake and alive gifting others with a clear and clean mirror. 

If you do this, you will see how everything will open for you.  The world is laid at your feet; path at the ready for your footprints upon it.

Blessings,

Namaste

~*~

Truth & Lies – Freedom vs. Fear



We live in a world of duality, where one side is at constant odds with the other.  We are forever in a battle of fighting off some kind of evil while striving for a victory.  This is the dynamic set up on this earthly plane. 

We succumb to its torment through many forms; be it media, food consumption, thought forms or just simply through the things we see or give our attention to.  All of these things come at us at an alarming rate; some too fast to detect.  We are inundated.

We are taught honesty is the best policy, The truth shall set us free.  But we are also taught that the Truth hurts.  But truthfully, what hurts more The Truth, or a Lie?  Pain is growth, unless it is consistently being met with adversity.  We make up our minds to be victims or to become victors.  Decide to walk in Victory.

Truth is freedom.  Truth reveals, while lies hide. Lies are told because we Fear being caught, found out.  We fear vulnerability and being revealed.  What is this fear about?

When I was a teenager, I remember living a double life.  The one my parents wanted for me, and the one I really lived.  My secret life was wrought with emotions, a flow of feeling unchartered by the structure of school or the rules my divorced parents tried to implement upon me.  My main focus was to be accepted by my peers, liked and included into the large group of what I deemed was Love; the moving tantalizing energetic soup of interaction.

But, as time went on, it was to be revealed to me that indeed this large group of ‘Love’, that I so wanted acceptance by, was actually full of other seekers, lost in their plight of finding some kind of public recognition; to feel as they belonged in society, a society really, that was not ready for their flavor ice-cream.

We were Indigos.  We came to change the world, not fit in it.  So all this seeking was really more about groundbreaking.  And in that nasty transition, we lied and lived double lives, because it was a survival tactic.  The only way we knew how to maintain and keep our inner life alive, was to live the lie in one form, showing we were obedient to a point, but then our honest life had to be hidden.

Today, it’s different.  We have grown up.  The lies we told back then, are passé.  The new lies are blatant.  We are living the truth, while the world around us is still stuck in the lies of the past.  The groundbreaking has begun, but there is still a ton of work for us to do.

When children tell lies, they are afraid of admitting that they have feelings which make them act ‘badly’.  Inside, they are afraid and it comes out in anger.  This expressed anger is societally unacceptable.  Society in fear believes that it must be admonished, so as to make a peaceful society. We all do want peace, on a deep inner level, but what of the issue of bullying.  Some call it a cry for help.  Some say, it is a virus running rampant in our youth.  In my youth, there was a punk rock.  Punk was a direct action stemming from a need to thrash; a need to rebel.  There is something innate about ‘getting it out’.  We need to teach the children from a young age, the idea of mindfulness and peace so they can have tools early enough to detect and protect themselves from energies which are around them.  So many kids, from a very young age are succumbed to ECT [early childhood trauma] that they get hardwired for aggression and this just comes out at a societal level at some point because the root issue is never addressed.  The kids get medicated and ignored, or worse, institutionalized.

The overwhelm on the parts of the parents is enormous.  They are expected to maintain the cash flow of income to support the family unit, while the children’s deep feelings get dealt with by school officials.  The family is torn apart and the children suffer.  They act out, in lies and sometimes sadly, violence.  This layers through the grades and unless the onion is peeled as it grows, the layers seat deeper and deeper covered up by adulthood.

In a world where most are seeking truth and freedom because this is the goal of a healthy soul, so many are still suffering under the dark cloud of ignorance, deceit and lies and are thusly trapped in a world of chains where it seems they can never get free.  So many grown up children have given up because they feel it is futile to even try anymore.  They have been beaten down on all levels, literally  had the freedom beaten out of them; be it by their parents, their society or simply their bosses on the job; fearful of losing the income which sustains them and their families. 

The ones who suffer most are the young children, because they feel and do not verbalize as well or as much as the adults or even the teens.  They really are little sponges who pick up the flow of energy all around them.  If the parents are consistently in fear, the child will be insecure; having nightmares and actually their tiny systems will innately push forward to grow up faster so they can be of more help; tiny adults not wired for the stressors they take on.  They will miss out on a childhood of real play, discovery and magic, because they have been pushed too soon into an adult world of do, be and perform.


Freedom comes from taking our power back, as parents and as individuals.  We need to protect our children from this machine of duality.  We need to foster in them the Truth.  The Truth means Love, Peace and Freedom.  The Truth is not as expensive as the Lie.  The Lie of ignorance, slavery, and fear is the root of the evil that belies the illusion accepted by the society that there is in fact a dualistic reality.

In Truth, there is no duality.  There is only Love, Peace and Freedom.  What we focus on manifests.    If children are led to believe that they need to lie to be ok, then there is a problem with the program.  What has to happen, and it is imperative it does, is that our children feel free enough and confident enough to allow failure, express surrender, feel humility and succumb to defeat. It needs to touch them on a deep soul level, so that they learn that it is simply the other side of the emotional spectrum and that by rooting and aligning their hearts with Love, Peace and Freedom, there really are no defeats, failures, surrenders, because only in a world of duality does this indeed exist.  In surrendering to these lower vibrations, it actually builds them up because this is where true strength lies, in getting back up when you fall; over and over and over again.  Whatever it takes!

In a positive family and societal environment, when one wins, everyone wins.  The need for competition on a soul level becomes good for the whole.  The word ‘represents’ comes into play and life can indeed become a win-win across the board.

To Lie is to Fear.  To tell the Truth is Freedom.  It feels harder to tell the truth because it builds your soul more, inside.  To forge ahead against adversity builds spiritual muscle.  But I am not speaking about bulk, I am speaking about honesty and the integrity that comes with being honest with oneself and with others. To lay the lies down and be honest is good.  To carry the burden of a lie is harder work.  Wouldn’t you much rather be free, light enough to fly?

I would.  I am living my life in truth now; forever finding more out about it.  It feels good to live in Truth.  Lies are too much work.  Lies make us feel like we are not living an authentic life.  Fear rules the Liar.  Fear of being exposed; but if he/she would allow the light of Truth to shine upon him/her, then surely he/she would be freed.  Surely he/she would become the winged one.  You can and you are if you believe it…

Blessings be,

Namaste

~*~