To Blog or Not to Blog

Once upon a time there was a Me.  And this Me had a lot to say.  Many thoughts from Monkeys to the Stars ran through Me's head.

Whether to write Me's feelings down or not.  Whether to get heady or not.  Me wanted to sound intelligent, factual and honest.

Me desired to be heard.  Me heard that Blogging meant "published".  Me liked that! :o)

Me Blogged and Blogged... and Blogged.  Until one day when some other Me read Me's Blog and got hurt.

Me felt bad, even though Me was honest.  Me stopped Blogging.  For a time...

Until the dust settled.  And time passed...

And then Me Blogged again.  ...Me is back!

Blessings Be & Namaste ~*

Me.

CHOICES

We all make choices daily.  Our choices create a ripple effect.  I affect others and they affect me.  People may not be aware of how they affect each other.  We are all alive, present, and we can choose love, or not.

We live in a world of duality.  Good, bad, on, off…  it really all just IS.   We live in a flow.   We are either in that flow or not.  We may think we create the flow, but really we are creating ripples, not the flow.  The choices we make create energetic ripples which go with the flow or not.   We either add to the light or the dark… we can dance between both or choose to go one way or the other.  We are allowed to change our minds and change.

We may have made some choices in the past which hurt others.  We may have forgotten those choices, or simply blocked them out.  We may have moved on.  We may choose to believe that trying again is futile.  We may have lost our remorse and moved on so much that we feel we have no way back to heal the wounds of the past. Nothing is impossible, however futile we think it is.

We may not want to change or feel like it’s just too painful or difficult.  We may not think or believe we have time, space or the energy to do it. We may have just given up or surrendered and accepted things as they have become.

Sometimes we are not aware of the choices we make and why.  And sometimes we do know.

Sometimes we just have to practice acceptance.  After all, forgiveness is a gift we give ourselves.  In choosing to forgive, we free ourselves from the chains of guilt and blame. 

Like time travelers, we are moving through space like astronaut souls in body suits made of flesh, bone and sinew.  Our brains are the first commander, but our hearts are the captains. 

Recently, I was confronted with some very hard energy from the past.  I felt very bad for a time.  I did not like this feeling.  It was not me.  It was from the past.  A person I love very much who has hurt others and has been hurt deeply themselves touched my spirit.  I do not know how to heal this rift between us.  Many times it has been attempted only to be met with conditions and patterns that do not serve the highest good of all involved. 

I am still choosing how I will respond.  I am facing other major life challenges right now,  so I am choosing to take care of what I can.  Sometimes, this is the best thing to do.

I am still recovering from this communication.   I am preparing for some very big days ahead and need my energy focused.

Karma is interesting.  In the choice there is a grand design.  Life is a plan with choices.  A maze with a map if one is aware.

I choose to KEEP MOVING FORWARD.  It is all I can do.  I am in the right place right now.  Everything that is happening is supposed to be happening right now.  I am me and I am here now.  I am alive.  I am love.  I am in the process of evolution.     I AM.

Namaste ~*

Janzee