ENOUGH!

We live in a society where gluttony is condoned. Everwhere we are told 'More is Good'.  Fast food, fast coffee, get it now, don't wait, hurry hurry, wolf it down.

The whole matrix is imbalanced.  We have to become aware of this all on our own as our projected anxiety and collective unrest emits itself in our surroundings by advertisements, TV and other media.  We even take rest in front of a screen which propgates this same hysteria to further imbed these ideas of 'MORE' within us even on a cellular level.

The idea of 'ENOUGH' has to come from a place deep within where we finally feel full.  This fullness comes not from food, retail items, sexual pleasure, drugs, alcohol or external stimili, but instead from an innate connection made only within ourselves to that of a Divine Power within us.  This Eternal Source of Love and Compassion for ourselves, our fellow travelers and the surrounding network of transitional energy within which we exist, can only be contacted through an awareness and a consciously made separation from that which we see and get inundated with, from that which we feel and know to be real and true on the inside.

This kind of connection takes mindfulness as spoken about in Buddhism, but more so it takes a constant practice, more than just daily, of being and living in a meditative state of awareness.  Grounding or conscious rootedness helps to facilitate the energy of this practice.

There are so many unseen distractions too.  Thoughts during the day are constantly flying around distracting us invisibly.  Not only are we inundated with visuals and audio, but we are also indundated cellularly and through these floating thought forms from everyone around us, on planet and off!

Some people I know, become night owls [myself included] just so that they may be in a more open space intellectually, spirirtually, emotionally & physically.  The mind gets cluttered easily and being 'off grid' is a peaceful way of being.  Cutting chords and energetic strings creates more expansion and space for connection with the Divine and also for creative inspiration to flow toward and into us.  Early morning is very inspiring.  Many ashrams and spiritual centers make this time for focused practice daily.

Clear thought, separate from the clutter of the collective --- jam packed as it is in our over crowded society --- is a treasure chest on a desert island.  We seek refuge and sanctuary at the same time.  To feel nurtured and at the same time peaceful, settled and fed in our hearts is what we truly seek.

To do this, we need time space, and concentrated energy which has been cleared and honored for this purpose alone.  Once practiced, it is often good to open to other energies which can be brought in aligned with this goal.  But the way must be made first.  The road needs to be paved before it is painted. 

ENOUGH.  ENOUGH. ENOUGH.  Setting clear boundaries comes from within and setting a light beam of love around us.  We do not need as much as we want.  We do not need as much as we want. We do not need as much as we want. To permeate this idea ---we can repeat it to so it can go inside deeply to all levels of consciousness:::  "I do not need as much as I want ---  I have enough and I am enough."

Enjoy the ride ~*

Namaste *

Janzee

IT ALL - an oldie but a goodie

We live in a society where we have to fit into a social norm and anyone straying outside of that social norm is considered a heretic.  Just consider this… What if everyone who was diagnosed with some medically misunderstood ailment was simply reacting in crisis to being forcibly placed in a box that they were not meant to ever fit into?

What if bi-polar dis-ease were simply our own human bodies innately reacting to the push and pull of the energies of the earth, the moon, the solar system, or the universe at large?  There seem to be so many people diagnosed with this that the numbers are astounding today.  Is this a dis-ease or merely a human reaction to the ascension energies going on our planet and the rest of the universe?  

Even all the self-medicating with street drugs for years can be attributed to this change taking place as well.  People just don’t know what to do with the energy.  They have to open to it, flow with it or go down screaming… medicated by doctors who don’t understand energy anyway and have been taught that if a pill cant ‘fix’ it its unfixable. 

What kind of world are we building here?  One of tolerance, compassion, love and kindness or one of control, fear, death and backwards thinking?  Haven’t any of them watched Star Trek?  Haven’t they seen the possibilities?  We have everything we need right here on this beautiful blue planet for healing ourselves, saving ourselves and becoming creatures of the light for which we were intended and instructed by beings of light of whom we know of well.

Before Jesus there were many, but he is, here in America, the most famous.  Surely we cannot be so ignorant and blatantly blind to the instructions and guidance left here by them?

It is time to wake up… to awaken others.  The truth lies at our feet.  We simply have to pick it up and walk.  Trust ourselves and love one another.  There have been so many who have said what I am saying before.  What makes this different right now is that this is being channeled right now through me.  I am a messenger of the light and I am here to say that you are too.  It is time to stand up and be counted, peacefully.

Be with me on this… LOVE… honoring the earth… all of her systems and our own systems of our bodies as light carriers and rainbow bridges.  Our chakra system is a musically based codex initiated by light and sound codes… we have simply to dance and we can change everything… Why do you think music is so popular… It changes us cellularly… we cry when we hear sad songs and feel love when we hear love songs… it goes on.  

Listen to the music play with your heart… but also your soul.  We ‘resonate’ with sound vibrations. Use the music to send the light out.  Envision a new world emerging in light.  See healers all around you.  We are all healers.  Your body heals itself when it gets hurt so you are a healer.  It’s a fact.

Science or no science we know this.  We are amazing.  We can do anything.  We are in space and space is us.  The animals know this.  We can learn from them.  We have to now.  Many cultures already know this.  We lock ours up in zoos and look at them in fear and admiration through cages; separated.  Have you ever sensed a lion’s energy?  You have.  It is not like ours.

Start to attune this and you will see what I mean.  We are not separate. We need to start living this thought.  We need to start and continue to be in the presence of the divine knowing; the knowing that we are conduits and conductors of the light energy.  Through our intention lie the answers to all the questions.  We create this reality.  When you look around you, see that everything made here comes from here.  All the ‘man-made’ things come from earth made things.  Know this.  Feel this.  See it and be it.  Everything we touch becomes light because we are light.  Everything we see and look at gets fed with light through our eyes.  It is said that “the eyes are the windows to the soul”.  Well, the soul is light.  When we look at something, light comes out of our eyes from our soul and sends this light energy toward and on the thing we are looking at.  With intention we can direct this light love force energy towards anything.  It is said “beauty is in the eye of the beholder” because when we behold something in beauty we are sending admiration and love and kindness toward that thing or person and we are actually making that thing more beautiful by our positive attention on it.  This has been proven scientifically through infrared studies.  

What I am saying is this – GET OUT OF THE BOX.  YOU ARE A CIRCLE.  You were never meant to fit in a box. Start getting to know the cycles of this wondrous place we call earth and start to see the magic again.  Remember when you were a child and everything was new?  Imagine it is and it will be again.  Try it!  Trees will light up for you.  Admire the hills and the mountains… look at the tiny rocks.  They matter as much as you do… much more than that paper with green ink on it bearing the image of a disappointed bald guy.  See the world again.  Wake up.  Look at the flowers.  Look at the stars.  I mean really look at them… they are amazing!

All this and we have done this to her.  Gaia is crying out for help!  Start with you and you and you… and we can.  One by one – awakening… to this new earth… the light is coming… 

Actually…It is here… right now… we just have to open to it *

Namaste ///*~|(*)|~*\\\

Janzee

|||_Trust your Gut _|||

When we are blind all we have are our feelings... Close your eyes.  What do you feel?  We can hear as well and taste or touch, yes... but truly... deep inside... when we really close our eyes to the distraction then we can feel. 

Sensing is everything.   Today my daughter opened a packet of glow in the dark sticks.  It is day now and she wanted to do it NOW! [lol] ~ So, we decided to make them glow and then she could go into the closet to see them glow.  She said she was writing her name... and asked me to look.  I was resting because I still have this back strain from the ice skating fall and I pretended to see through the door. 

Something amazing happened...  I could see through the door.  I felt through the door... with my senses... and I could see her in a sense... writing her name on the door.  It was amazing and beautiful.  When i let go of my logical mind and allowed myself the freedom to break my own rules of  "No, you can't do that."

I did.

Trust your gut... let go and see what you CAN do... you might be amazed...  Trust your sensing *~*

Namaste *

Janzee

~ Left vs. Right *

I took my 4 year old daughter ice-skating.  I had not been on ice since I don't remember when, and it was her first time ever.  We were both scared when we first got on and proceeded to slip around right off the bat.  We both clung to the wall pretty tight for the first go round, and by the second, we were more comfortable.  By the third time around we were off the wall and skating carefully.

My daughter had fallen once while we were on our first loop and hurt her cheek a little ~ but she kept going and I told her how proud I was of her.  On the end of the third loop we had positioned ourselves so that I was skating forward and she was in reverse ~ she was leaning forward and I had both of her hands.  She was looking down, lost her balance and slipped right under my open legs; like a move from Greased Lightening.

I was holding her hands and trying to break her fall... and I went down...I knew as I was falling that I was going to land right on her little body, so I twisted my own body to land on my right side, but had to brace myself with my left hand. I did land on her a bit but not as much because I did twist myself to protect her.  I hurt myself more... but that is a mother's instinct.

I hurt my hand pretty bad and she had an egg on her head... we got pretty scared and left after that... She was crying ~ no blood.  Many people saw us and as it was embarrassing as well ~ we were also in pain.  A lady got us some ice and we calmed down in the lobby.

I did not feel the consequences of my injury until later that evening when I got home...  The inflammation came up in the evening and by that time she was fine but I was in utter agony.  I do not take painkillers.  I placed Arnica Gel and Traumeel ointment on my hand and wrist and wrapped an ACE bandage around it to keep it steady.  I went to lay down and rest.

The pain was very bad ~  a 10 on a scale of 1-10 and I just rested and tried to keep very still and breathe.  I did not take anything for the pain.  I became aware that I wanted the lesson that the pain was bringing. I opened my mind and spirit to it...

That night I slept well, but in the morning I was still in pain; however, it was not as bad as the night before.

I began to notice how much I needed my left hand and what jobs it did due to me not being able to perform certain tasks.  My right hand had to pick up the slack, but there were certain things that could not be done without my left hand.

I made a two column list of things my different hands did.  It was very interesting for me to look at this.

It reminded me of when I was 25 years old.  I crashed my bicycle and had a similar experience, but then I had lost the use of both hands.  My life completely changed at that point and I saw similarities to then and now having temporarily lost the use of one hand again.  I was going through a major change and I had let go of a very strong belief system that was not in my highest good.   These realizations did make me more aware back then.  So much so,  that I actually had a major spiritual awakening from this occurring.  This time, the same things was happening, but in a different more deeper way.  I was further along the road and the insight seems stronger now.

Here is the comparative list:

                 LEFT                                                   RIGHT                                
heavy lifting   [worker/slave]                          directs  [boss/leader]
holds things                                                   writes
types                                                            types & clicks mouse
much stronger                                               holds phone
less dexterous                                               more dexterous
more graceful                                                precise
creative receiver                                           creative giver          
slower                                                          faster
retrieves                                                       gives
picks up things                                              puts things back
gives things to right                                       takes things from left
more gentle                                                  more aggressive
helps                                                            does
supports                                                      dominates
braces                                                         busier - works harder
leaned on more [weighted upon]                  pushes, pulls, opens, closes - moves things
rinses dishes                                                washes dishes
monitors                                                      acts/action hand
makes things nice                                         makes things nice
smooths                                                      smooths
uses fork                                                     uses knife/cuts better
carries more                                                opens doors [holds keys]
follows                                                        leads


So... I thought... isn't that interesting...!  If the left side of the body symbolizes the FEMININE... and the right side symbolizes MASCULINE... I am having an interpersonal relationship within myself at every moment.

My hands show me how I am both the man and the woman in me.... ONE.   How these two appendages work together, relate and communicate depicts very clearly to me an partnership and a relationship within myself... my very own male and female within me!  

When I was 13 my parents divorced.  I felt a rift occur in me when they split up.  I felt like I was 2 people in one body and that these 2 parts of me separated... divorced.  I always felt as if they were alien to one another and in this injury I got to see just how alienated they were from each other.    My right hand was completely oblivious to how much the left hand helped it, supported it and gave to it.  Without the help of the left hand - the right hand was pretty limited.

I think that this can be viewed micro/macro ~ interpersonal relationships amongst ourselves ~ individually, as couples and as a society... the world at large.

My right hand had to wake up and take care of my left hand... it no longer had run of the show ~ dictating what was going to happen and when.  It now had to cradle, heal, take care of it's partner.  I found a new caring in my right hand for my left. It had to become the caretaker.  My left needed rest and healing...  and to be taken care of....

I remembered back to when I had my daughter... I always held her in my left arm.    As my daughter grew, I still carried her in my left arm, while my right did things that needed the dexterity.

The left was always weighted down and carried much, much more... I have piled 5 grocery bags on my left arm while the right carried one or two and the keys.


I think it is wise to become mindful of our two halves that make up the unity of one of us.  To see that we have within us this duality ~ shown in our different sides and by what we do with each side ~ can enlighten us to the world we create around us with each other and our children.... imprinting this pattern on our future generations.

With just some basic awareness and a shift toward caring; slowing down enough to take care of the side that works hardest... I can find a new balance in my life.  In my body alone, I do have signs of great stress that show on my left only... so in my mind... my body is not only showing how my masculine side is not caring enough for my feminine, but I also see it as a template for the world we live in where the feminine is disregarded in so many ways.

The whole society and world for that matter is geared for the masculine drive, perfectionism and production aspect to the detriment of the worker.  If you look at the list ~ you will see what I am saying...  When are we all going to realize that it is overdue time we take care of the feminine principles in ourselves, our bodies and our world?  Breast cancer is at its highest case in history... this disease is clearly a red flag to warn us that we are, as a culture/people, not nurturing our women enough.

I don't know how to change myself overnight... but I am hoping that this new awareness... a gift from inside... and from the ICE... will make some kind of dent in my own psyche to where I can shift something in me to better take care of my feminine side... so that I can better balance myself and make peace in me between these two facets which make me one whole and beautiful person... loving, caring and thriving on Earth.

:o)   I sincerely hope this helps you too... *~*~*

Namaste *


Janzee

~* It's Just a Synapse *~

Memories, thoughts... reflections.  We think all day and all night.  When do we get a break?  Unless we meditate... never!  Even in dreams ~ our brains are still 'going'!

When I paint or create a piece of artwork, I find I do get into a non-thinking space.  I find a 'zone' where nothing else exists except what I am creating and focusing on.  It is really very nice... :o) ~~~

Our brains are made up of tiny neurons which are constantly sparking off of each other.  There are tiny brain nerve endings, if you will, called synapses which connect and disconnect with each other depending on what we are focusing on.  Experiences and feelings create stronger synapse bonds.  After a while, if we have not used a synapse bond in a while it disconnects, but if we are reminded of something that relates to that memory or feeling, the synapse can reconnect.   Ignored synapses release... the longer a synapse is ignored; the less likely it is to reconnect.

That is why sometimes we cannot remember people from our past ~ say from high school ~ who we haven't see in a long time.  The brain synapse is disconnected.   If we reconnect with them, say on spacebook ;o) ~ then that synapse reconnects... There is more on this in the film ~ "What the Bleep do we Know?".  It is related to the theory of quantum physics and is quite an amazing phenomenon.  Please do check out that film if you have not already... [Also, "The Secret" and "The Living Matrix" ~ I highly recommend viewing]

With drug and alcohol addiction it is a similar deal.  Even cigarettes show us that we have a 3 fold addictive process, one of which is in our mental workings and this relates directly to the synapses.  We 'think' we need a drink, a drug or a cigarette... but that's just our brain firing a memory...  We had it before... we think we want it again... hence "habits".

Our amazing brains and bodies even create more receptor sites to accommodate the extra influx of a chemical ~ when we inundate oursleves with toxins.   Sugar addicts and sex addicts have the same phenomena.  The pleasure center gets expanded so to speak and we 'crave' more more more to accommodate and fill the void.

So? The solution...?  Is to replace the deficit with something else positive.  New healthy energy, positive new ideas, healthy positive activities...like:  Hope.... Surrender... Prayer... being and remaining open to newness. 

But we have to be sure to remove all surrounding triggers for that synapse to be reignited.  Any possibility of 'reminding' the synapse to fire again and reconnect that unwanted 'thing' ~ be it a person, a drug/drink or just an idea...  has to be quelled by mindfulness and rigorous authenticity to ones own path, self fulfillment and empowerment through this new freedom.

You can ask yourself:  "Is this in my best interest?  Is this for my highest good?  Is this the road to my higher self?"  If you answer YES then go for it!  And remember... anything that is not a YES... is a NO.  [Thanks Jacqueline for that one! ;o)]

So... don't sweat it if you think you will NEVER get this 'whatever it is or whoever it is' out of your head...  The less you think of it/them and the more you replace that thought with something else... a redirection of sorts... that synapse will 'forget' and die ~ wither off ~ and when it is not firing and is ignored ~ it will cease to be.  

There always is a possibility for 'raising the dead'  but really... who wants to do that?  We are here to evolve and he are programmed for that... so lets evolve already ;o)

Movin' on ... *~*~*  into the Light *~*~*

Namaste *

Janzee

~* The Disappearing Trick *~

"Where did it go?"   The time... that thing... my thought?

We all have this happen... no matter what age we are... 4, 41, 69... [ sounds like a call to hike a football ;o)]

I believe in faeries... and I do believe that these two dimensional beings come through and 'borrow' stuff... or a better way to describe it is that they put an invisibility cloak on something and then we just can's 'see' it.   Oftentimes I go to my computer, or leave a room with a thought, and when I get where I am going... ~ Poof! ~  it's gone!  Or I find a thing I have been searching for merely to misplace it seconds later...

Sometimes, coyote comes in to play or Mercury as he is otherwise known... The Trickster.   It's part of the chaos that makes the magic happen... it drives us crazy, but it's part of the whole big deal.

We can use this to our advantage too... we can choose to disappear when we feel overloaded, overwhelmed, or just plain tired.   When we sleep, we disappear into the darkness and night... and we dream...

I personally have witnessed people and things disappear... Forgetting is part of that...  There is an innate magic in the Universe that allows for such gaps to occur so that we may move between the spaces inter-dimensionally through space and time.   Scientifically they even have proven that light actually bends... so to imagine that things can move and even disappear, is not that far a cry from reality...

Even Einstein said "Imagination is more important than knowledge."  Didn't he mean we can change our reality by imagining it so?  Think about it...  if you have ever had any mind or mood altering experience, and this includes sleeping or anger, not only drug induced experiences; you would have seen how things gets misplaced when we are angry and energy moves so fast...  we do not always remember, when we calm down, what we did or where we placed things.   The same for sleeping...  in dreams we remember things as if they were so real, what really is the difference other than we wake up.  No-one has proven that dreams are not real and we are not dreaming now...   Form is a creation of our imagination and everything is porous as proved by Quantum Physics...

We are on the Holo-deck, and what we imagine does become real...  to disappear is a reality...  and to have things hidden from us is part of this reality...  it is not a stretch to think we are merely light moving through a playing field of energy...  making our way... picking up things... putting down things... be those things material, thought forms, feelings, emotions or ideas...

To disappear is a trick... of the mind... the Great Unconscious and of the Collective Mind which ties us and all things together...  The One Verse ~ the Uni-Verse... 

Don't chase it ~ let it go... if it is meant to come back... it will reappear... in mind, then spirit... then form.

And... Dear Ones.....  FAITH is the Key.... for truly.... Letting go is Believing... *~*~*

Namaste*

Janzee

~ Good Timing ~

I was driving home this evening and I saw a bumper sticker which read "I'd rather be here, now".

We live in such a rushed world with everyone on the way somewhere or racing to get home from there.  We think thoughts about everything and everyone at once.  The internet is a vast medium of thoughts where we can have 7 tabs open at the same time and be multitasking while cooking dinner and entertaining the children. 

We have become spiritual octopi.

In yoga we practice mindfulness and meditative ways of being... yet when we leave the class, its back on the treadmill and whoosh!  Up the roller-coaster again...  click click click...  [arms up here please ;o)]

It really is time to breathe...

When I went to see the Grateful Dead for the first few times, I really noticed how the people walked.  I noticed the 'stroll' they had.  They were comfortable in their bodies and they moved differently than say a worker in the city marching to their job or running an errand.  I am well aware that the 'strollers' at Dead shows were definitely under the influence, but they had something I wanted.   Peace.   Inner peace.

I did my fair share of partaking at Dead and shows and the such, and I did not always have the seemingly permanent peace that I saw in so many around that scene.  I truly believe it is an attitude and an inner consciousness where the person who carries themselves in this comfortable fashion has settled this 'peace' into their bones.

The 'stroll' I speak of comes from dance... and I found that dancing gets me there.  Movement of my body, yoga and swimming take me to a space nothing else does.  When I am in the water... I feel more 'me' than usual.   I can feel my essence more in a hot bath too, or a sauna. 

It is being in my body where I find real connection to the spaces between...  These places are where the *Magic* is for me...  I have found I can expand these places with meditation and mindfulness... I can envision anything and everything there.  I can stretch and push my energy from this space... I can travel from here through visioning and projecting my intention.  I can also be seated here and stay here as long as I like ~ fully present in this moment... *

Distraction is a temptation... there are so many of them.  They come in the form of product, people, ideas, sounds and thoughts from within even.  To become mindful of them is to become aware of ourselves...

Being in the space where we can grow space, is a place of "Good Timing".  By being in Good Timing, we can create more Good Timing...  It is like having an inner sunshine we can access at all times... Coming from a place of Good Timing means wherever we go and whatever we do... we are Right on Time.

Regarding Chaos.... because this is a universal and inescapable temporary state of being... if we get distracted and discombobulated ~ we still end up exactly where we are supposed to be.  Chaos is natural also and it allows for the changes between the spaces... things need to connect in new ways that are beyond logic and linear time and space... we have to surrender to this and not try to control it or get angry when it happens.  This just wastes energy and we all know now that resistance is futile... ;o)

It is within the Chaos that the energy finds its way... even if it does drive us bonkers for a while!  Things need to be shook up... and we need to be not so rigid and controlling... without chaos there would be no order.

Music, and especially music like the Grateful Dead,  Widespread Panic, Dave Matthews, etc... makes space  that allows such change to occur and flourish.  I call it "Music I can swim in".  One just needs to open oneself to it... Through free flowing movement... unrequited openness of spirit... and an acceptance of the life force energy, or Prana if you will, we can truly evolve in new and wonderful ways *~*~*

After opening to and becoming one with and initiated into this realm of change, the dance and the life force flow...  we all can, through this movement of the 'dance'...attune to the music within us and around us in the trees, the air and space, like the music of the spheres... and just BE in the flow of that.... right now.... ~


                                                           *~*~*   ONE LOVE   *~*~*


It really is all about Good Timing....

                                                                    So...     

                                                                                        Have a Good Time!    :o)



Namaste *


Janzee