To Blog or Not to Blog

Once upon a time there was a Me.  And this Me had a lot to say.  Many thoughts from Monkeys to the Stars ran through Me's head.

Whether to write Me's feelings down or not.  Whether to get heady or not.  Me wanted to sound intelligent, factual and honest.

Me desired to be heard.  Me heard that Blogging meant "published".  Me liked that! :o)

Me Blogged and Blogged... and Blogged.  Until one day when some other Me read Me's Blog and got hurt.

Me felt bad, even though Me was honest.  Me stopped Blogging.  For a time...

Until the dust settled.  And time passed...

And then Me Blogged again.  ...Me is back!

Blessings Be & Namaste ~*

Me.

CHOICES

We all make choices daily.  Our choices create a ripple effect.  I affect others and they affect me.  People may not be aware of how they affect each other.  We are all alive, present, and we can choose love, or not.

We live in a world of duality.  Good, bad, on, off…  it really all just IS.   We live in a flow.   We are either in that flow or not.  We may think we create the flow, but really we are creating ripples, not the flow.  The choices we make create energetic ripples which go with the flow or not.   We either add to the light or the dark… we can dance between both or choose to go one way or the other.  We are allowed to change our minds and change.

We may have made some choices in the past which hurt others.  We may have forgotten those choices, or simply blocked them out.  We may have moved on.  We may choose to believe that trying again is futile.  We may have lost our remorse and moved on so much that we feel we have no way back to heal the wounds of the past. Nothing is impossible, however futile we think it is.

We may not want to change or feel like it’s just too painful or difficult.  We may not think or believe we have time, space or the energy to do it. We may have just given up or surrendered and accepted things as they have become.

Sometimes we are not aware of the choices we make and why.  And sometimes we do know.

Sometimes we just have to practice acceptance.  After all, forgiveness is a gift we give ourselves.  In choosing to forgive, we free ourselves from the chains of guilt and blame. 

Like time travelers, we are moving through space like astronaut souls in body suits made of flesh, bone and sinew.  Our brains are the first commander, but our hearts are the captains. 

Recently, I was confronted with some very hard energy from the past.  I felt very bad for a time.  I did not like this feeling.  It was not me.  It was from the past.  A person I love very much who has hurt others and has been hurt deeply themselves touched my spirit.  I do not know how to heal this rift between us.  Many times it has been attempted only to be met with conditions and patterns that do not serve the highest good of all involved. 

I am still choosing how I will respond.  I am facing other major life challenges right now,  so I am choosing to take care of what I can.  Sometimes, this is the best thing to do.

I am still recovering from this communication.   I am preparing for some very big days ahead and need my energy focused.

Karma is interesting.  In the choice there is a grand design.  Life is a plan with choices.  A maze with a map if one is aware.

I choose to KEEP MOVING FORWARD.  It is all I can do.  I am in the right place right now.  Everything that is happening is supposed to be happening right now.  I am me and I am here now.  I am alive.  I am love.  I am in the process of evolution.     I AM.

Namaste ~*

Janzee

*~ Weather the Weather ~*

The Earth is alive.  We know this.  Her name is Gaia. We know this too. 

While eating my fruit salad this morning with organic vanilla yogurt this morning [Nancy’s brand] I had an epiphany.

The thought came to me in regards to the weather on earth, that she, Gaia, is doing all of this for the good of all.  The weather seems to affect us so much, but we, as humans tend to focus so clearly on how the weather affects us only.  

Did you ever stop to think, as I did today, that the weather is not for us.  It is for every living thing on Gaia.  She is aware of how the wind, the rain, the clouds, the sunshine, the snow affects ALL parts of her.

She knows what she needs and when.  She knows what she is doing.  Even the earthquakes and the Tsunamis, all of the “disasters” that affect us negatively, are simply ways of her changing and growing.

We are after all just residing on her skin.  Her surface is our home and even though some live on water, we are still only on the surface of her, held by gravity.  

I believe She is aware of our presence and even thought this is true, she knows that her well-being is priority.  

She has to make sure the trees, the birds, the plants and animals are ok.  They are all a network crucial for her survival.  She doesn’t really need us to live.  She hold us close and loves us but like a good mother knows to feed herself and take care of herself so she CAN take care of her children.

However, if you become mindful, you can witness her caring for herself.  She loves herself so much that she brings the winds, the rain, the clouds and the sunshine at just the right time and in just the right way to make sure she is well and warm and happily growing her own self-supporting sustenance.  

The best thing we can do is honor this.  She would appreciate it if we became more aware of all she DOES do and honor and respect her for this.  She is after all, our Divine Mother, and without her we could not live.

In love and light… *~*~*  BLESSINGS!

Janzee

~*Monterey*~

There are homeless pirates asking for spare change at the wharf.  There are mermaids working as waitresses serving food at the local restaurants.  There are tiny magic houses where fairy folk live and art galleries with magical dream-time imagery just hanging there for the viewing.  They cost $11,000 each, but you can look for free.  You can get a ride on a glass bottom boat to see the sea life and get grateful for this beautiful earth we love on.

The aquarium houses fish who have personalities. Their eyes look back at you through the glass, if you can put down your camera long enough to see them and absorb their energy.  Taking pictures is an addiction and a form of staying separate from the world.  I have 10's of thousands of photos in my laptop stored safely away never to be seen again.  But there they are!  Saved and ready for when I want to look at them again.  I guess it beats the boxes of badly taken Kodaks in the garage.

When I stopped and looked and felt the fish behind the glass there was something else going on.  Not that they had faces and they looked different than me or you, but rather that each had an energy like people do.  They were not all the same.  Each had distinct vibrations about them.  Some were obviously bored and numbed to the environment - fed daily on a regular basis with no drive for living through the search for food.  Some were aware and one looked at me for a long time - talking with me... spiritually.... it was lovely.  I will never forget that fish.  It was bright orange.   Some swam right up close to me by the glass and we shared energy...

A lot of them were just resting on the bottom, sleeping. 

I did not know fish slept.  

I had many dreams while we stayed there.  I dreamed in 3 layers.  There was a big gap in one segment of the night like the dream weavers had to reload the segment.   They were very profound and cathartic.  Moving vast amounts of emotions through me as I slept and visioned the stories they told me...

I know in my soul that fish are our dreams --- swimming around in the deep subconscious of our souls --- it is told in many dream symbolism books that this is so and Carl Jung refers to this in his writings.  I saw it in action.   To bridge the gap between ideas in books and thoughts we have - information we find and then apply it to everyday living - without the crutches of mind or mood altering drugs to 'get us there' is the trick.

It is totally possible and comes through being fully aware in the moment that we ARE.  In breath... when you find yourself in awe of nature... be it the ocean, the breeze,  a tree...  a bird... whatever!  Find yourself there and become ONE with what it is you are focusing on.  Absorb this energy into you and listen with your heart...  your soul... your FEELINGS... then be grateful and give the focus of your attention to that which you are with... send it LOVE and GRATITUDE for BEING.

You will find a connection in that.

And THAT is..... God, Goddess ---  all that is.


Namaste ~*


LOVE!


Janzee

WHAT IF?

What if you were told that you were a STARSEED and that a certain point in time you were going to be awakened?  What if what you held in your body and your spirit were something that only YOU could bring to the planet and GIFT the people of EARTH with your UNIQUE gift?  What if only YOU held this secret and you weren't even aware of the IMPORTANCE of this unique gift that you held?

What if it was crucial to the entire UNIVERSE, not only the earth and all of its inhabitants that you take the BEST CARE of your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual/causal body so that YOU could be in the best shape possible spiritually, mentally, physically and emotionally to bring your special GIFT forth in the best possible way...?

What if we all had a special GIFT to bring forth?  What if we are ALL starseeds...?


WE ARE.

Do your best... ;o)   It is all that is asked... ~*



Namaste ~*



Love,  Janzee

~ Patience .....a Virtue ~

They say that 'Patience is a Virtue'.   Meaning it is something learned through practice.  For me it's about remembering to breath when I want to explode.

Some of us are better at it than others, but what I have found in my 41 years on this Earth is that it 'dont come easy'.  One day I might be very good at it and think I have the whole thing figured out, and then the next day... BOOM.

I remember someone telling me that meditation was a key to this mindfulness way of being. [It was my Mom] By meditating every day, I could become more centered and thusly respond better when moments arose where my patience was tested.

I find that breathwork has a lot to do with me remaining calm as well as diet.  When I eat acidic foods, I am much more likely to lose it compared to when I eat alkaline.  Alkaline foods are just more peaceful.  Acidity makes rushed decisions, can't wait for the light to change and is totally off the mark.  If I am going to eat acidic foods, I need to be extra mindful that I can or will react differently than when I am ingesting alkalinity.

Many times I find myself caught in a dance of too fast or too slow.  If I am going too fast, everyone is going too slow.  If I slow down.... vice versa.   It's like I heard someone say about driving on the road...  If someone is going too fast they are a MANIAC and if someone is going too slow then they are an IDIOT.

So,  who would I like to be... a maniac or an idiot?  Neither actually.   I would like to be somewhere in the middle... going with the flow... feeling peaceful and doing things right in time and space.

I have had many of these experiences before so I know what they feel like.  They feel like I am in my body, grounded, happy and in tune with the Universe.  In other words,  they feel great!

I want and desire to be in the flow.  I need to feel centered and grounded.  I need to breath [and drink lots of clean water].  I need to appreciate life around me before it flashes away while I speed by it.  I need to look in the eyes of my daughter and see the Universe there.   I need to turn off the computer, the lights, the TV and light some candles.   I need to sit in front of a fire and drum.   I need to feel my soul from within.

I need to meditate.   I like to meditate.  When I practice this... I am exercising my patience muscle which I can visit again when I know or remember where it is through this practice.

I want to take care of me better.  I am doing and ok job right, but I know I can do better.

It's not what you show the world, but what you are like after your front door closes.

[You will never get this day back...]

...Stay present because you are a gift...

Namaste ~*

Janzee

*~ Sleep is Good ~*

Slumber, 40 winks, catching some Z's, going to dreamland, crashing out, hitting the sack, had it, enough for me, time for bed, going to sleep, see you later, sandman's here, and many more...

I love sleep.  I love dreaming.  It is so important to get good rest.  We sleep for 1/3 of our lives, but I believe we are not missing that much.  I do more in my sleep some nights than I do in my waking state.  I can do so much more in so many different ways that it is hard to explain in words.  I guess that's why the Great Spirit  invented this lovely avenue for us. 

I process my life in my dreams.  They are the basis for a lot of my creativity.  Sleep creates space and healing in my life.  My dreams show me that I am more than my waking self.  I have a life beyond reason and 'reality'.  A place I can be and go where there are no rules and limitations; only the ones I impose on myself.

Taking good rest is good for the Soul.  It is good for the Over Soul and also good for the Collective Soul.  Without it we go crazy, think way too much and just burn out.  Being burnt out is not a nice place to be.  teeth start falling out, and hair too.  Sleep is healing and we can all use more of that.  We can bring a better us to the world when we have recharged properly.  Make it your new Mission to bring back some Sleepy Love into the World Today... ~*   So... Go now... and get some REST and Sweet Dreamzzz... *~*~*

And don't forget to bring some back... There is a rainbow bridge and its wrought in starlight *~*~* 

Namaste *~*~*

love,

Janzee